Just make it short and simple je. I know blog give me some troubles in life. kte mmg taleh lari dr masalah. tp bole delete some part yg leh mnyumbang ke arah tu. Kata2 ak dlm nih, gmbar2 dlm sudu nih, byk sgt kenangan. Ingat bole hide. tp tade option tu. so i choose to delete. All of it. Skang ni da cm eksiden lupe ingatan, mcm mati hidup smula. Tatau lak memory tu leh hilang dgn serta merta, just few clicks. few years back byk sgt ups and downs. n yes ak summarize dlm entry ni.
Start from 2 years back, ak ade msalah dgn roomate lame. If its not my fault pon, today i'll say sorry. bile tgk balek gmbr2 mreka, ak rse tak berbaloi dgn happyness yg kte ade. Jus bcos a guy yg absolutely nothing n big suck loser after all. Kan dina? Kite sume tak salah, if kte bole sabar sikit, kte mst close mcm dlu lagi. but i know sume jd ade hikmah die. Die pon da jumpe circle of friends yg baru, yang suit her well. Im happy for her =) ak pon da jumpe circle of friends ak yg baru, sgt baik ngan ak, hope in future too. aiono.
after that yada2, like i said , ak jumpe circle of friends baru, Eda Tya ngan Nik. Diorg ajar ak tuk bersisha for the first time. Ak xkn lupe ^^. Klaka pon ade. Haha. Plus they bright up my day. We all close, start from ak psg lagu Hujan dlm kete, never thought diorg pon dgr n layan jgk. Tipu lah klu korg pon bukan raingers dlu. Haha. After kenal diorg, scr percuma, kenal lah Api Burn Syed. and dgn percuma lg kenal lah Faiz, Nabil ngan Hafeez. After masing2 da suke musik, baru start pegi gig and all. Happy! that time.
and never forget, Fendi.(u know, i always wanted to type it Fendu. Haha) Hes 1 guy yang always give n never think about return. You safe me at this 1 gig. remember? Haha bikin cuak je. Thanks for being there when i need someone. and im really sorry, ape yang kte rancang tak smsti nye kte dpt. Tuhan yg tentukan. kan? infact u org baik, good people is meant for the good one =)
In between many situations, cm biase lah, terselit masalah2 rumah yang xpernah nk slesai. even today. Masalah duit yg menjadi2. Masalah adik bradik. Masalah kucing2 yang hilang. Emo! Thats like few years ago. n kesan die bole rse smpai skrg. N yes, the most important guy yang byk tlg tntg msalah2 ni, Tengku Muhammad Hafizuddin, yang kini mungkin die da benci ak to death =( Infact, I owe u alot. I promise ill pay u someday. We'v been together for few years thru my ups and downs. n jugak takdir d tgn tuhan. We break for good. He is my past and my good memory. Thanks opoku.
Today i meet a new guy, after ayears ive been alone. I choose him for i also donno at first place. I just wanna start a new chapter. I pick him as my leader. n Yes. Hes totally different from others. Ak tau, keputusan ak might hurt some people. and at first i also dont know weather its a good start or not. He just different. n now i we'v been together for almost 10months. still got ups and downs. biaselah tuh. if u dont care me, i care u. Heart! Azraai Baharin.
n yeah. Evrythings will end after 24hrs this entri will be post. Evrything. I know my mistakes. You know your mistakes. They all know their mistakes. I forgive and forget. Just certain things u have said, i have said, they all have said. the word had spoken cannot be change. Klau lah ak eksiden hilang ingatan kn mudah tu =) Mulut2 org ssh nak tutup. I choose to close mine. Tanak dengki dah. Tanak selfish pon, n i never think bout it. ive change after all. but yet its too late to rewind. Klau lah hidup itu mudah spt delete entri dlm blog nih.
mengikut sudut agama jgk, (ak da ckp, ak nk tulis sume hr ni). Dari kecik ak hidup dgn pegangan agama tidak lah kuat mane. tp ak tau. cuma prektikal itu kurang. Jangan mudah sgt judge org mlalui sudut itu. wlaupun ak mcm ni, ak tidak dengki. tidak berfikiran keji. Ak masih belajar, n ak harap ak lebeh baik dr smlm. Mmg org akan ckp ak salah, klu ak fikir 'Ak tabole pilih tuk lahir dlm keluarga mcm mane'. da nmpak ak ni menyalahkan keluarga atau erti kate lain , xreti bersyukur. Cube kamu2 sume d tmpt ak, korg akan faham. Ak pon xpernah mmpersoalkan org knape die mcm tu n ini. itu sume adalah kehendak diri sdiri. n ak pon harap org tak persoalkan ak knape ak mcm ni. Peace.
Okela. sume nye akhir kt sini je. yang mane smpt bce, bce lah. yg mane tak. yang da bace sile bukak sesi mesyuarat tangga kt celah2 rmh. ak tak kisah.untuk keamanan bersama. Im over it.
and i miss my ghay friends. klau lah blogspot tak wujud. Sigh
goodbye Sesudu.
